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I have never felt the level of despair that I am feeling right now. I truly want to die, because I can not imagine my life continuing the way it is. My husband of 14 years has walked always from me, and told me that he doesn't believe that he really ever loved me. He believes that he loves another woman, whom I have met, and have to say, she is a very nice person, but she wants my husband. Every time I think I can not cry anymore, I cry. I have not eaten in five days, and last night was the first night I have slept in 4 days. My son left on Wednesday to spend the rest of the week and through the weekend with his daddy. My heart is absolutely broken. I know that I will never ever find another love like him. I love him with all of my heart and soul. He tells me I will get through this and find someone else, but I know that I won't. The only possible way to get through this is to turn to God, whom I have ALWAYS turned to, in good and bad, and ask Him to guide me. I also know that I cannot disobey his rules, and what I believe they require of me. So again, I will not be with another. I have sinned enough in my life without intentionally deciding to do it again. I have confessed my sins to those I have sinned against, and to God. My husband is my whole world. Everything I have ever done in our life has been with him in mind. I am an empty shell right now, and the only thing I want is him. I know I have a child to be strong for, but I feel so useless to him.



I have prayed every night, for God's will to be done. I have also prayed that God's will be to reunite my husband with his family. Please pray for me. I know the power of prayer is a powerful thing, and it is something that I need right now. Otherwise I am certain I will be one of the many that have dies of a broken heart. May God Bless.


Damsel9@softhome.net